my heart will not go on! it just for You

In the name of Allah the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful...

There is something touch my heart to write in the entry. Today I'm not felling well, I've got flu and a bit fever so I'm just take MC for today. There's nothing to do while MC getting bored just sleep, take medicine and facebook. Huh what a bored!

I've got a phone call form a akhwat. Just have a bit chatting and after that there is a "curhat" session means curahan hati form heart to heart. I told her how my life right now, there no more precious and it just like something missing. And my "mutabaah" getting worst! I've got usrah here but it it still the same.

She said it might be as a test for you dear, as a akhwat who has been tarbiyah we cant be like this. Remember what have done before in this dakwah, do you want to waste what have u done before? How we strive become like we are now, do want to waste all of this dear???

There is no one going to check my mutabaah so I'm just leave it...Huh, what a stupid reason!
I"m try to be a good akhwat again...make your life to get His blessing not others blessing...if u do for people you just get nothing but if you do fot Him you will get everything. Come on! make all the day cheer again. Cheer with His blessing dear!
My Ukhwahfillah please pray for me!